Neon Aurora
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Generally, I don't post my personal business anywhere. But at the moment, I really just need to write this down and post it SOMEWHERE. This forum has been wonderful to me so I feel like here is the best place. I don't think many people look here anyways. =P
I'm currently dealing with overwhelming guilt at a mistake I've made. My father is a pretty bad alcoholic, but I do what I can to help him. He was sober for almost a year and started making noises about getting a dog. I was supportive of this because I thought having a dog might be therapeutic for him and help him in his recovery. I told him I thought it was a good idea and even helped him pick one out. I was wrong. He's had several relapses in the past 6 months or so. Each time, I kidnapped the dog because I couldn't be sure he was taking care of her or that she wouldn't get hurt. But this latest one I just can't do that. I'm taking 7 university classes and I have animals of my own. I just literally can't take care of her right now.
I feel terribly guilty. Cripplingly so. I wish I could go back in time and tell him I thought it was a terrible idea for him to get a dog. Very naive of me to make that decision. Now there's nothing I can do, and I'm too busy to even take responsibility for my mistake.
Anyways... Just needed to write it somewhere.
I'm currently dealing with overwhelming guilt at a mistake I've made. My father is a pretty bad alcoholic, but I do what I can to help him. He was sober for almost a year and started making noises about getting a dog. I was supportive of this because I thought having a dog might be therapeutic for him and help him in his recovery. I told him I thought it was a good idea and even helped him pick one out. I was wrong. He's had several relapses in the past 6 months or so. Each time, I kidnapped the dog because I couldn't be sure he was taking care of her or that she wouldn't get hurt. But this latest one I just can't do that. I'm taking 7 university classes and I have animals of my own. I just literally can't take care of her right now.
I feel terribly guilty. Cripplingly so. I wish I could go back in time and tell him I thought it was a terrible idea for him to get a dog. Very naive of me to make that decision. Now there's nothing I can do, and I'm too busy to even take responsibility for my mistake.
Anyways... Just needed to write it somewhere.