Neon Aurora
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Aside from having to evacuate my home to a fire, losing our beautiful horse Tristen, and breaking my nose, I have now lost my dog, Kodiak. He was a 7 year old akita mix. He was acting a bit off today, so I took him to the vet. There we found out he had spleen cancer that had ruptured and was bleeding into his abdomen. We euthanized him just about an hour ago.
I seriously want to just curl up and die right now. This is also the first week of the fall semester at university, so that is just swell.
I just needed to write something somewhere. I've never felt so wretched. He meant so much to me. I loved him so much. Tonight just absolutely tore me to pieces. I have so many regrets. I wish I could have given him the life he deserved. I wish I'd known this was coming so I could have spent every spare moment with him. I don't know how I'm going to be a functional human being for a while, but I have to be.
I hope you all are having a better summer than me.
I seriously want to just curl up and die right now. This is also the first week of the fall semester at university, so that is just swell.
I just needed to write something somewhere. I've never felt so wretched. He meant so much to me. I loved him so much. Tonight just absolutely tore me to pieces. I have so many regrets. I wish I could have given him the life he deserved. I wish I'd known this was coming so I could have spent every spare moment with him. I don't know how I'm going to be a functional human being for a while, but I have to be.
I hope you all are having a better summer than me.