I just decided that....

[dragonflyreptiles]

I was a few days ago going to air out all of my stability, instability, medical, mental and personal shit but I decided not to.

The way the tables have been turned and even before a few days to weeks ago I just want to say that:

I may do stupid things but I am NOT a stupid person

I may do down right nasty things but I am NOT ALWAYS a nasty person.

I may at times say very harmful, down right rude and demeaning things but I AM a RUDE person and I am not a HURTFUL person and try not to be DEMEANING to others most of the time.

Im not the smartest person on the block about reptiles but I am also NOT a complete idiot.

I am afraid of a lot of things and that for me is hard to admit.

There are a lot of other things I am or am not but that is all I want to say about it all right now since most of the tiem I am not 100% sure of who I am.

I was once told by a therapist that I was one of the smartest people he had ever met but I did the strangest stupid things he had ever seen, so maybe that is who I am maybe not.

But I have decided that I will not spill all of my guts at this time for the pure fear of the reprocustions of the people I care about the most.

 

[Golden Gate Geckos]

But I have decided that I will not spill all of my guts at this time for the pure fear of the reprocustions of the people I care about the most.

I understand, and don't blame you for feeling that way, Wendy. I really do.

 

[Russ S]

But I have decided that I will not spill all of my guts at this time for the pure fear of the reprocustions of the people I care about the most.

You never know, you just might find out who your friends really are.

 

[dragonflyreptiles]

I take things way too personal and even things that are not said to me affect me persoanlly and there have been some things said and done that I am not comfortable with at this time.

 

[dragonflyreptiles]

You never know, you just might find out who your friends really are.

Russ, Im not sure I am ready to do that.

 

[Russ S]

Russ, Im not sure I am ready to do that.

Fair enough.

 

[KelliH]

You never know, you just might find out who your friends really are.

Yeah, I sure am finding that out too. Thanks so much "friends".

 

[dragonflyreptiles]

Yeah, I sure am finding that out too. Thanks so much "friends".

I hope you don't mean that towards me, Kelli you are as I have said one of the best friends I have in my life.

 

[KelliH]

Wendy, if you really mean that then you will stop adding fuel to the flames. This has to stop.

 

[dragonflyreptiles]

Agreed!

 

[KelliH]

Thank you.