Baby Orbie lost the battle

[rubym]

I think that I had to do the worst thing that I have ever done today. I went to do weekly weights on 1 group of our geckos. When I went to do baby Orbie he tried to bite me ( this is very unusual for him). My heart broke when I saw why he was acting like that. He couldn't move either of his back legs. He was screaming in obvious pain. I immediatly called Dr. Williams and was told that unfortunatly there was very little that she could do for a 12 gram gecko. My husband wasn't home and Orbie was in such pain that I was the one that had to put him down. I would have taken him to the vet and had her do it but I couldn't let him suffer till 4:30 when my daycare kids leave then for the hour drive to the vets. I was a vet tech for 6 years and was lucky enough not to have ever had to help with a euthinization ( sorry I can't spell worth crap today). It is 28 degrees here today so I took him outside and sat with him till he closed his little eyes and went to sleep. I then placed him in the freezer. I don't see how people do it. I know in my head that I did what I had to do but in my heart I feel aweful. To so many people they are just geckos but..... I had to help little Orbie out of his egg because of his deformity. He was only 1 gram. He seemed to be doing so well. I know 12 grams at 4 months old isn't normal but he was so adorable and such a little fighter. Maybe I should have let him go right after hetching but I just couldn't. Well thanks for letting me ramble on. It helps.

 

[kyahbean]

Ohhhh that's so sad. I'm sorry this happened to you.

 

[Golden Gate Geckos]

Ohhhh Ruby... I'm so sorry you had to make this decision. It's heartbreaking enough to lose one, but putting them down is the hardest thing to do. I know you made the right decision, and you know you did otherwise you wouldn't have done it. It still doesn't make the hurt go away. It was the most loving and compassionate thing you could do for this little one. ((hugs))

 

[rawson5084]

Im so sorry

 

[Kristi23]

I am so sorry.

 

[Mel&Keith]

Oh, Ruby, I'm so sorry you had to go through that. It was a a very kind and selfless decision you made though.

 

[rubym]

Thank you all so much. I would have given anything to have the vet be able to do something. He was just so tiny.