In loving memory....

[rubym]

We had our first gecko death today. Maharrett our TAG female passed away this morning about 5 a.m. She had been loosing some weight but she was parasite free and it was chalked up to all the stress of breeding and egg laying. She was the one that didn't take to mating well and then only laid 1 large egg at a time in all 3 clutches. I had started giving her slurry 2 days ago because I was worried about her weight loss. The vet said that some geckos do not take well to stress and once she was done laying eggs , she should bounce back. I feel horrible that I am the one that fecided to breed her. She had such a gentle personality and she was just such a baby that I hoped those traits would pass on to her hatchlings. Right at this moment I could care less if none of my females ever breed. I know I have told other people that things like this happen and they are in a better place and you can't give up but boy is it hard to follow your own advice!!!! I also know it probably seems silly to alot of people to take the death of a gecko so hard but 2007 was a rough year for me and these little guys helped me through more then once. There is no better therapy then some of the antics that a gecko can pull to make you laugh instead of cry. Sorry that this post is book sized.....I just miss her already. The world of reptiles can be a roller coaster ride. I was all happy yesterday about our 2 new mack snow babies and today it is the opposite story:bigcry: . Thanks for listening. I appreciate it.

 

[Musilitar]

Awwww, ruby!
This is such a sad story, but you shouldn't blaim yourself, it was nature's call.
I also have a very special bond with my first gecko, even if she doesn't like me.
I can totally understand it's hard to follow your own advise, as it is so easy to tell people what you should do, as I am doing now actually, it's not as easy to actually do that.
I just wanna say that this community is here for you, and that you can say that she had a good life.
Best of luck further on,
Greetings Musilitar

 

[fallen_angel]

We completely understand how you feel, our family members thought we were crazy when we cried over the death of our first gecko, but you really grow an attachment to the lovely little things! Ours was named BoJangles and unfortunately never recovered from the loss of her tail. We miss her everyday, but she is the reason we now have five more and are breeding this season.

Best wishes to you and we're truly sorry to hear about your loss friend.

 

[Mel&Keith]

Oh Ruby, I'm so sorry. Sometimes females just don't take laying well and can't bounce back but there's really no way to know before hand so try not to beat yourself up about it. Maybe giving a little extra love to your other geckos will help ease the pain for now.

 

[rubym]

Thank you all so much just for listening....it really does help alot. I have decided not to breed anymore for a couple of months. I still have several eggs incubating. We have one of hers in the female tank and I am hoping that it is a "big fat squishy" like she was. I was most surprised at how hard my poor husband is taking it. He is not one to show great emotion and it seems like these little guys can even turn a him into a marshmello. I run a daycare and my little ones ( 3 and 4 year olds)felt that we needed a funeral. They all put flowers down for her. Little people can make you smile even in the bad times. One four year old explained to me that I shouldn't be sad that maharrett went to live in heaven just like her great grammy did.

 

[dprince]

Ruby, I am so sorry for your loss. Like Mel said, some females just have a hard time. Try to be gentle on yourself, OK?

 

[MSMD]

Ruby, I'm so sorry! It's not silly at all to be so upset about losing a gecko. That's our passion around here. I cried over a sick gecko that I had for 2 weeks and tried to nurse back when I lost her. And over a hatchling that I only knew for a few hours. They all make their own little places in our hearts.

It's very sweet that the kids helped you with a funeral. Sometimes little things with that can help us with some closure.

 

[Golden Gate Geckos]

Ruby, I am heartsick for you. It's so hard to lose a beloved pet, and it leaves a gaping hole in our chest. There is no one on this forum that cannot understand or sympathize with how you feel about losing Maharrett, and I'm glad you could post about it. I wish I could put my arms around you and let you cry... and cry with you.

 

[Airilith]

Ruby, I'm so sorry for your loss. *HUGS* Maharrett's in leo heaven munching on the best crickets and mealies he's ever had. I'm glad the kids are helping you deal. My 8 year old cousins help me get through tough patches. Their giggling is so contagious that you can't help joining them. And it always makes you feel better.

 

[david13]

I'm so sorry to hear about Maharrett. I havn't lost a gecko but i can just imagine how bad it is. I am so sorry to gear that..

 

[PacHerp]

I am so very sorry for your loss... It is very difficult to lose a dear friend. Try your best to stay positive... I will be keeping you in my thoughts.

 

[moosassah]

I'm sorry, but I totally understand. Who ever would have thought that a simple little reptile could win you over so easily?! Hopefully this is the last of your heartache for a long, long time.