Stress leading to big health problems...

[LeapinLizards]

The last 6 months of my life have been the most stressful I've ever had to deal with...I will spare you all the details because there are MANY and this would reach record breaking lengths. Long story short is that my body is done. Between daily headaches, and not being able to sleep for longer than 3 or 4 hours at a time I just can't do it anymore. I haven't been around much lately for that specific reason...I'm just at my whits end. I apologize to anyone I've been short with or rude to lately, there is no excuse for that. I'm working on de-stressing, and removing any stress inducers in my life. I hope to be back to normal as soon as possible. I just thought I would let everyone know that I'm still around, and still madly in love with this community :main_yes: just going through some rough times I guess. I'm normally an extremely strong person, but I guess everyone gets tested at one point or another! Thanks to all that have been there for me...it means more than you'll ever know :sweetheart:

 

[Lecko my Gecko]

we ve got your back squirrel jerky!

 

[thestack510]

Heather,

I hope things take a turn for the better very soon for you. Everyone hits bumps in the road, no one can fault you for that, just make it a point to keep rolling. Have faith that you will come out on top in the end. The GF community will be here for you whenever you need us. I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers. I hope the best for you.

 

[LeapinLizards]

we ve got your back squirrel jerky!

LOL Nick...everyone else is going "what the...???" Thanks

And thank you so much Ken, it means a lot :main_yes:

 

[fallen_angel]

Heather, you are always in my thoughts and just know that you are very much loved by many :sweetheart: I wish I could be there with you.. you're a very strong girl, much stronger than I think I have ever been. If I've ever seen an or known an angel, I know you're one of them. **Sending some love, positive thoughts, and prayers your way**

 

[Kristi23]

(((Heather))) I hope things start getting better.

 

[THE WHISPERER]

You ever see the movie Labyrinth? i,m thinking of the part were they're all standing around the girl saying "If ever you shall need us"

 

[LeapinLizards]

Thank you all so much...really. Jess, your post made me cry! I just wish we lived closer to one another sis...sounds like we both could use the support right now!

And Rick, yes I know that movie well

 

[Gregg M]

Chin up baby... Things will be fine when you get your stuff in order... You know what you need to do...

 

[LeapinLizards]

I had all my appointments today, and did a TON of testing, gave about 5 vials of blood and all sorts of fun things today. The doctors all seem to think it is a mixture of hormone levels and a severely out of whack thyroid...which would explain everything! I'm really hoping for results and answers soon. Thanks everyone for the support It really means so very much!

 

[Golden Gate Geckos]

Heather, I am sending healing thoughts your way!

 

[LeapinLizards]

Now for the update...not a good one, but an update nonetheless.

The test results came back all indicative of a syndrome called Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome/Disease (PCOS). This would explain everything...severe abdominal pain, lack of sleep, headaches, loss of hair (over half), etc. A big part of PCOS is IR (insulin resistance). My body apparently doesn't know how to process the insulin it produces, which as you can imagine, can lead all ALL SORTS of other problems. The real kicker...there is no cure, no pill I can take to regulate it all. I've been fighting off depression as hard as I can, this just seems like the icing on the cake.

In the next few weeks I will be posting my 30 geckos for sale/rehome here on the site. I just have too many things on my plate and feel that I am doing them a disservice by not being able to tend to them as regularly as they should be. I will also be placing the rack I built on here and on craigslist for local pickup only in the Portland, Oregon area. I will be sticking around the site, and want to thank everyone that has been there for me.

 

[LadyxMJ]

Now for the update...not a good one, but an update nonetheless.

The test results came back all indicative of a syndrome called Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome/Disease (PCOS). This would explain everything...severe abdominal pain, lack of sleep, headaches, loss of hair (over half), etc. A big part of PCOS is IR (insulin resistance). My body apparently doesn't know how to process the insulin it produces, which as you can imagine, can lead all ALL SORTS of other problems. The real kicker...there is no cure, no pill I can take to regulate it all. I've been fighting off depression as hard as I can, this just seems like the icing on the cake.

In the next few weeks I will be posting my 30 geckos for sale/rehome here on the site. I just have too many things on my plate and feel that I am doing them a disservice by not being able to tend to them as regularly as they should be. I will also be placing the rack I built on here and on craigslist for local pickup only in the Portland, Oregon area. I will be sticking around the site, and want to thank everyone that has been there for me.

Hello,

We don't know each other, but I know your pain. I too have PCOS that eventually lead me to anemia, miscarriage, Ovarian mass, etc...
There was something I wrote that helped myself and many others through hard times and I hope this helps to heal you too. My prayers are with you, everything will be okay, just like how its meant to be =)

HAPPY PILL- Reason

The world seems so big, with problems that are so small.
As selfish as it sounds, they arent problems at all.
No Coincidences just a world orchestrated by a universal pull.
When you fight the flow of life, everything seems to fall.
I promise, you have everything you NEED at your tired feet.
Your prayers are already being answered before you speak.

Just look around you and stop wanting what you do not have
Or else youre sufferings will grasp u by the hand.
you'll be so wrapped up in a world of fantasy,
That you'll become so numb to the reality.


The divine universe always makes sure were okay
Thats when you know today wouldnt carry the essense if it werent for yesterday.
We all know and heard that life happens for a reason.
But people soon forget this when change gives us its meaning.
Everyone of us will affect the outcome of the next second
They say, if you pluck a flower the world changes it's rotation.

Life depends on the other person, that the other person had on them
What we say affects an outcome to and outcome outcoming that.


It is when you fight the flow and current, you'll need to make EXTRA efforts.
Just letting it flow, everything will come TOGETHER.
Use unwavering faith to trust the universe with gratitude and wisdom.
Even the deepest sorrows will wither away with all your issues.


Miracles can and DO happen in your life.
Its when you start noticing all the miracles, you'll find no need to cry.
Each and every little thing is there for you, just SEE
Its a matter of actually creating gratitude for the life you lead.

You suffer because you always wonder what others might think of you.
Its actually your ego thats pulling you from your truth.
Your truth will always be within your soul,
Its a connection you have with god.
But its distorted each time we are filled with fear
so we believe everything is gone.


YOU have the power to create miracles in your life.
YOU have that chance each time.
Each second is a miracle in itself,
just open the heart of your eyes.

Evil HAS to be present so that THE GOOD must prove itself.
So instead of dwelling on the problems, they are actually there to help.

Know when you have troubles, its a sign of good change.
Faith that GOD placed u in situations you are READY to face.

At times it will scare us, and maybe bring us pain
it will stray us from loved ones that loved us before the change.
It will darken your light and laugh at your face
It will even question your heart not to have faith.

But as luck may have it, u remembered the miracles in your life.
The things that use to scare us, helped us not to die.
When pain was afflicted inside our soul,
courage was instilled within.
it tore us down and built us up
from all our darkened sins.
We strayed from what we thought was good
Felt robbed and seemed unfair.
but if we werent strayed we'd be deceived,
by what evil has prepared.

In order to awake us, from the evil that awaits.
It darkened our light so we may push our faith.

To change the stagnant water, that lurkes with this disease.
It only creates fear of self and all the hate it breeds.
The little things like family, and the friends that we have left.
Weve learned that they're still holding on, to the same rope where we bled.
We no longer have to suffer, because we no longer deal with foes.
The ones that left you hanging, that would have let it go.

In a world full of darkness and souls that feel too late.
Suffer endlessly inside until they find their way.


Each MOMENT is a miracle, each MINUTE is truly blessed.
Each HOUR is a result of the MOMENTS each MINUTE you've progressed.

NO MATTER the situations, no matter where you'll be
It happens for a reason so that it takes u where u NEED.


Remember that this second, is a second result of the last.
Everything happens for a reason, for the reason reasoning that.
It should not be something we regret, but rejoice that we've been lead.
Just like your reason for reading this, it was meant for it to be read.


-w. light and love,

Marie

 

[LizMarie]

Wow.. I'm so sorry Heather. Reading your post/responses was as if you were talking about me. I've been dealing with an illness as well for almost a year now and have succumb to depression after months of trying to fight it off and lets just say I was REALLY DOWN! I can only imagine how you must feel. I know when I found out I felt as if my body had betrayed me or if I had missed something along the way such as a certain vitamin, not enough sleep, etc. but there was really nothing you could have down to prevent it. Even though I know right now it seems as if everything is crumbling.. Health, Relationships, Work, Mentality you just have to know things WILL get better even though they seem to be crap at the moment. It took me awhile to learn that and weekly trips to therapy to stop me from jumping off my building but things are getting better and they WILL get better as long as I keep my head high. Even though I feel and look like crap half the time I'm not going to let this bring me down and you shouldn't either. We're here for you praying and sending good vibes your way so just embrace them and know your not alone and everything will be okay and everything is okay even though it might not seem like it and don't be afraid to seek any help you think you might need. Therapy has helped me out a bunch!
Luv Ya, Heather!

 

[ElapidSVT]

sorry to hear about your problems, heather.
(((HUG)))

you have a LOT of friends here!