I can't do this anymore.

[JordanAng420]

After losing my little Peggy in October, and my husbands brain surgery in November, I learned my OTHER cat was in kidney failure too. On Saturday, my parents were leaving to go on a cruise and some of the animals were being boarded in kennels... In an attempt to put "Elmo" in his carrier, he did the "kitty splay legged" thing that they do, so it's nearly impossible to get them in the crate...at that point we heard a blood curtling scream. So rather than the kennel, off to the vet I go...and off to the cruise my parents went. I went there with the idea in my mind that I knew exactly what they needed to do...only that wasn't the case. Not only is Elmo the worst candidate in the world for surgery because of his kidney failure...after further radiographs it was concluded that Elmo had some type of metastatic disease that was affecting his bones and has metastasized to his chest. We then did a needle asperate.

Osteosarcoma. The worst, fastest-growing bone cancer there is out there.

The vets and I all agreed that the best and most humane thing to do is to put him to sleep. I can't put him through a biopsy, surgery, chemo and who knows what else to keep him around for my benifit for another 4 months. I've had this cat since I was this big.

I can't handle this anymore. Enough is enough. The ENTIRE WORLD has been LITERALLY thrown at my face and now I have to face this...while my poor mother is overseas and has no idea she's not coming home to Elmo.

I don't know if i'm strong enough to continue with all this.

 

[lizardlove]

I'm so sorry about Elmo, and you absolutely did the right thing.

I happen to know that you ARE strong enough, because you're still able to function after having gone through all of this, and are still pretty coherent. Horrible times will happen, but they are always a precursor to wonderful times and I believe that they are a test of our strength. Those who are able to withstand a curse are worthy of a blessing, etc. Keep moving along and stay strong, things will always get better - it's like the moon, waxing to Full, then going dark, and waxing again. Your Full Moon is coming soon.

 

[rubym]

I am so sorry for your loss. It is hard to loose a beloved pet anytime but it sounds as if you are getting more then your share at the moment. Just know that when you make it through the rough waters, you will be a stronger person for all you have survived. I hope that the tide turns for you soon and you get to your calmer waters. Best wishes.

 

[Mel&Keith]

Oh Maia, that's truly heartbreaking. I'm so sorry you're having so much to deal with at one time.

 

[Kristi23]

I am so sorry.

 

[thestack510]

I'm sorry to hear about Elmo. I know how rough that is. I hope your other half is feeling better soon too. Take it easy Maia.

 

[Haligren]

I'm so sorry. I can relate. I live in Canada now, but back in Virginia we had a cat named Shadow. He was as old as the hills and was the most AWESOMEST cat EVAR. Everyone and their dog loved Shadow. My mom was especially attached to him.

But he became very ill and passed away (quite thankfully) on his own one day. I'm still mourning I think because I feel like I didn't really get to say goodbye.

I think you did the right thing though. It's an EXTREMLY hard decision, I know, but he's not suffering any more, thanks to you. That's the most important thing. I hope your husband feels better too.

 

[JordanAng420]

Thanks everyone. Sometimes I need a spot to vent, and I seem to get a lot of support here. I really appreciate it.